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Overcoming and Taking Heart
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Before last January, Lucian A. Sperta had never published a book. One year later, he has six published books, four of which have hit Amazon’s top 100 list of hot new releases in poetry and one, Yesterday’s Rain, just reached #17.
Through a poetic narrative, Lucian, an Intensive Case Manager for ICL’s Blended Case Management program and a credentialed alcohol and substance abuse counselor-in-training, shares his personal journey towards healing and recovery. He had no choice but to publish them. “It was time. My mind had become a storage place and so did my apt since there were 275 poems strewn all over the place. I feel like I am an empty internal book shelf; it was a cathartic process tempered by self-consciousness because of all the personal issues I shared.”
Each of Lucian’s books of poetry feature covers designed by Diana Little, ICL PROS vocational supervisor, and former ICLer, Rubin Gilbert.
Lucian hopes that his work will help others. “In my job, I work with a lot of survivors of sexual abuse, as I am. Their struggles have made me more appreciative of where I came from and where I am today. While the process has been difficult for me, I needed to let out the words and feelings that had accumulated in my head.”
His first royalty check will be “paid forward entirely to help the children. They are always the victims of war, poverty, rape and molestation. They are the helpless ones.”
Lucian Sperta’s books are available on Amazon.
Presently, Lucian is working on My Life in Pieces, which will be released as individual chapters written in prose form.
Lucian A. Sperta’s published books and reviews:
• Azar'El (pub. August 8, 2011) In Hebrew, this means “God has helped.” For Lucian, it is due to God that he come this far.
• El – אל (pub. January 12, 2012) Meaning the “Strong One,” Lucian identifies God as the Strong One who inspires strength in himself.
• I of the Storm (pub. December 24, 2011) While Lucian is “the self” within the eye of the storm, outside of the calm is a raging storm of childhood abuse.
• Yesterday's Rain (pub. January 1, 2011) The storm is passing for Lucian and the rain, which symbolizes time, is washing away many of the issues with which he has struggled.
• I am Aleph (pub. January 21, 2012) Meaning I Am (God) – who resides in everyone. It is a poem that was spiritually-inspired while Lucian was riding to work.
• Dukkha (pub. January 21, 2012) In Buddhism, Dukkha can mean attachment to anything that can cause suffering. It is Lucian’s realization and acceptance that his attachment to his own suffering has caused him great pain.
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The Final Ending
The time has come, to remove the gunnery of words from the shooter of my tongue.
To find new beginnings and new ways of winning over the darkness of yesterday, with this inner plea I make my way. I pray not to the gods for protection as I make a declaration to move forward. Albeit like a snail, I will leave a sticky mess within this chaotic dress. So I attempt to reach the final ending toward a new beginning. I dance and mourn the letting go; I bow my head with kippah and mumbling Kaddish saying good-bye to yesterday.
It will not be easy to let it all slip away; residue is a common factor that cannot be ruled out. I will mourn heavily for those long gone who’ve drowned in the pain of their own souls. Where booze, and mind altering drugs has numbed out so many. Lives withered away by the hands of pedophiles, sexual exploiters, and rapists.
I reach my final ending toward a new beginning; as I recite the Hindu prayer;
Asatho Maa Sad Gamaya.
Thamaso Maa Jyothir Gamaya.
Mrithyur Maa Amritham Gamaya.
Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti.
From untruth lead us to Truth.
From darkness lead us to Light.
From death lead us to Immortality.
Om Peace, Peace, Peace….
Brhadaranyaka Upanishad, I.iii.28
No longer will I suffer the remnants of time left before me. The sound of tic toc tic toc will not stop for me alone.
There have been too many thieves and grave robbers over my temple and what has been taken can never be replaced. Today what lies in these pages, are the tattered remains of a dying yesterday and a tomorrows rebirth-of self. This is the final ending toward a new beginning.
From the Book Dukkha by Lucian A. Sperta
Vincent B.
Thoughts of you abound in my mind
This terrible struggle within my life,
Has caused me grief - a terrible strife.
Between love and hate in this horrific state
Underneath you lay in a cemented slate.
Hands invading my youthful terrain
You never really truly explained-
Your created guilt and wounding shame.
This Shallow grave and silent stone above your cold and
Dusty bones-
I remain with a forever question unanswered and alone.
From the Book Azar'El By Lucian A. Sperta
posted
Jan19
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